I won't go into the issues of my heart or the thoughts I had to work through, but I will say that focusing on Jesus does make it better. It's 7:40pm and I can say my heart is good now. I am getting ready to spend some quality time with my sweet husband as we plan to watch a movie together. This means I will finish this post later. I should have written this post earlier, but it's been a pretty full day.
Tuesday, April 4, 2023
I had some heart issues today, not like health issues, but attitude. It's also because I didn't turn to Jesus first thing, but started to check the weather, various social apps, and so on. How I start my day really sets a powerful tone for it. I either start it with God and have a right heart centered on Christ or I have to battle negative thoughts and attitudes all day because I didn't center my heart first thing. It's a daily choice that I sometimes make the wrong decisions.
You hear people say that "comparison is the thief of joy". It was actually Teddy Roosevelt who said this and he couldn't words couldn't be more true. I've done this in my youthful days to the point where I stopped painting, drawing, photographing, or doing other creative things. I'm now at an age where I could care less what someone thinks. It's really a great place to be.
I've started painting again after years of doubt. The thing is, if I didn't stop I'd be good at it by now, but the comparison part made me stop which in turn made me lose years of practice. Luckily for me, I didn't get worse but have improved despite the break. Now I can't stop painting or creating because I know that my skills and talents will only get better from here.
I do so many creative things because I am an artist. I've always been afraid to say that because I doubted myself, but I am almost 40 and can proudly say it. Some things are happening in my life (I won't share that in this post) so having a creative outlet is helping me focus in the right way. I am now realizing that being creative is really a gift from God because He allows it as a tool to help us through some tough seasons. Many people have said that art, photography, or other creative pursuits have helped them heal and walk through difficult times.
I will now share some of the art I've started creating 3 weeks ago so please keep in mind all that I have said and the fact that this is a process, not the finished product. I'll create prettier things in the years to come.
Also thinking about it, I do so much! I am a wife, mother, knitter, crochet, photographer, rose grower, garden owner, teacher, friend, youth leader, painter, videographer, vlogger, and blogger. I also like playing video games with my family so my conclusion is I am never bored!