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Tuesday, April 4, 2023

March 4, 2022

I had some heart issues today, not like health issues, but attitude. It's also because I didn't turn to Jesus first thing, but started to check the weather, various social apps, and so on. How I start my day really sets a powerful tone for it. I either start it with God and have a right heart centered on Christ or I have to battle negative thoughts and attitudes all day because I didn't center my heart first thing. It's a daily choice that I sometimes make the wrong decisions.

I won't go into the issues of my heart or the thoughts I had to work through, but I will say that focusing on Jesus does make it better. It's 7:40pm and I can say my heart is good now. I am getting ready to spend some quality time with my sweet husband as we plan to watch a movie together. This means I will finish this post later. I should have written this post earlier, but it's been a pretty full day.





Conquering Fears & Chasing Dreams

You hear people say that "comparison is the thief of joy". It was actually Teddy Roosevelt who said this and he couldn't words couldn't be more true. I've done this in my youthful days to the point where I stopped painting, drawing, photographing, or doing other creative things. I'm now at an age where I could care less what someone thinks. It's really a great place to be. 

I've started painting again after years of doubt. The thing is, if I didn't stop I'd be good at it by now, but the comparison part made me stop which in turn made me lose years of practice. Luckily for me, I didn't get worse but have improved despite the break. Now I can't stop painting or creating because I know that my skills and talents will only get better from here. 

I do so many creative things because I am an artist. I've always been afraid to say that because I doubted myself, but I am almost 40 and can proudly say it. Some things are happening in my life (I won't share that in this post) so having a creative outlet is helping me focus in the right way. I am now realizing that being creative is really a gift from God because He allows it as a tool to help us through some tough seasons. Many people have said that art, photography, or other creative pursuits have helped them heal and walk through difficult times. 

I will now share some of the art I've started creating 3 weeks ago so please keep in mind all that I have said and the fact that this is a process, not the finished product. I'll create prettier things in the years to come.

Also thinking about it, I do so much! I am a wife, mother, knitter, crochet, photographer, rose grower, garden owner, teacher, friend, youth leader, painter, videographer, vlogger, and blogger. I also like playing video games with my family so my conclusion is I am never bored! 












Thursday, March 31, 2022

Rainy Day, But Make It Beautiful

It's been a month or so since I have blogged. I have totally forgot all about it with the war in Ukraine and refugees staying at our place for two weeks now. For some reason today was different though. I told myself that I will have a rest day. That means I wanted time for my bible, to photograph, to be inspired, to color, read or crochet and maybe some time on Youtube watching some of my favourite vlogs. I did some of those things and I was inspired today so it felt like the perfect day to document today's inspiration into a blog post. It is 9:45pm while I am writing this. Normally I write my posts in the morning when I have inspiration and words, but again, today is a bit different.

In the morning I enjoyed some coffee and conversation with Lubos. It feel like weeks since we sat down at the table in the morning with coffee in our hands. There were some things we needed to share and catch up on. Life has been a bit intense lately and finding time to sit down and talk has been limited. After that he went to work and I started photographing. I just love to photograph in the morning when my coffee is still hot. There seems to be an unlimited amount of inspiration. It's always been like that, but now that I go to work Monday-Wednesday I have very little days to enjoy my creative calling. I know there will be a season again when I will get it back so I am okay with the couple days I do get. 

While I was photographing I decided I need a colouring book. I've been enjoying colouring on my days off. It's been fun to play with colours, to do something quietly and something that won't give me a headache like knitting and crochet does lately. So off I went to find myself the perfect colouring book. Right when I left the house it started to rain which it hasn't in weeks, maybe even not at all in March. It was nice actually because it's been so long and it's been missed. Along with the rain also came the cold so it was time to bundle up again. While out I also stopped by two handmade stores and got myself new rag rugs. I love rag rugs because they are easy to through into the wash and with a dog about it just makes sense to me. Now we own two new rugs.

I had an evening planned with Petronela and spent my afternoon colouring an envelope to put her little gift in. She was wanting colourful spoons to use for tea and photography and I found some for her. We had a great time eating dinner and talking. I think I spent like 3 hours at her place. We had so much to catch up on and it's been too long since we last got to sit down and talk. 

Now I am home and ready for bed. It's 9:55pm and tomorrow wake up time is 7:15am. I hope I will be inspired to take pictures tomorrow as I was today.













Thursday, February 24, 2022

So This Means War

And just like that the world got a little harder to bear overnight. This morning we woke up to the news that Russia has started to bomb Ukraine. The two countries my families come from are at conflict with each other. I have so many thoughts and feelings on this, but before I get lost in them I need to go out on this sunny day with my camera and spend some much needed time with Jesus.

I went out and I've learned that going to the city when I have a full and heavy heart is not a good idea. While I was there I was praying the whole time, taking pictures, but my heart wasn't healing or surrendering. I felt like I was holding my breath and my worries were unchanged. Usually when I have a full or heavy heart my walks are life giving. The city felt like nothing mattered expect its own fortune. Not sure how to really describe how it all felt, but I think this is pretty close. I think that a walk through a quiet neighbourhood street without crowds is more of how my heart heals and surrenders. 

After walking the streets and taking pictures for an hour I got a call from Tín who needed to stay after school to practice with his Drama class that he's in. We planned that I would meet him at his school and together we would go to the cafe in his building. Turns out I arrived an hour early, but I am glad I did. While he was in class I bought a new plant and learned my new camera some more. It seems like I discover new things about my Fujifilm x100v every week. While I was waiting for him for that hour I felt like my heavy heart lifted and things were a bit lighter and in God's hands. In these moments I am thankful I can pray in tongues because my heart isn't ready to focus on words yet. It brings me out of the darkness when I can't.

So to breakdown this whole thing about Ukraine. First off... I have a grandmother, and two grandfather's who are from there. I still have a cousin there and 2 half uncles and a half aunt living in Dnipro, Ukraine. My dad visits them every year expect he had to stop due to Covid. These are my people and my origins. Ukraine is also a neighbour of Slovakia nd my brother is in National Guard whose been deployed since January to Europe. I mean this attack hits close to home in many ways, not just one. I don't know what the months will look like ahead, but I have Jesus. I am also thankful for everyone who is praying. 

















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