I've been avoiding this blog for whatever reason, but finally have enough self discipline to sit down and put everything together. This past week has been the wind in my kit that later turned into a complete hurricane. After the high on life feeling I didn't expect to get knocked down a few notches. Despite all that I can be still, amongst my emotional storm, as I breathe in my reminder that God is King over my emotions and life. That means I literally have to take deep breathes every so often to keep myself from crawling out of my skin!
A big reason for this is the silliest of things, but to me its kind of a big deal. I took Toddler for a big boy haircut. Before I talk about how much he's grown in a few short minutes after the haircut, I'd like to explain that hair, for me, is a big deal. I don't let anyone cut my hair and I don't like it when hubby comes home with a fresh new cut. I like hair to be long, curly and beautiful. I just have a thing for hair. So when Toddler gets a big boy cut (second one) I feel like I've just lost my baby until it starts growing out again. Well this time around it hasn't been that easy. With this big boy haircut came his big boy attitude. My 'little' Toddler now has an opinion on everything, yells to get his point across and thinks me to be his servant on top of that 'acts' like a baby and tries to prove that he is one. Can I just say GRRRR! As I type he is yelling at me in his room for me to get him some hot chocolate milk.
I PRAY daily for God to give me the wisdom to raise this child of mine! Being a mommy isn't easy and I'm just the mom for this little man, but man oh man!
Wow, my vent is now over and my emotional state a little more stabilized. It also helps that hubby just plopped down a strawberry Haagen-Dazs in front of me. Let the blissful and silent night begin after I get that hot chocolate milk for that baby of mine.