That's the question I've been asking myself.
Today I had the opportunity to capture a very special moment for my friend. It was the announcement of the sex of their baby. Here's a little preview of the beautiful moment and the surprise on their faces.
So lately I've been finding out that this person is pregnant and that one is pregnant. It seems like there is a new announcement every week that someone is expecting. Therefore I have to ask myself the question.
To be or Not to be...
It's hard not to want to be part of the expecting crowd as it seems so exciting and precious. How can one not want a cute little cuddly newborn? The smell, touch and feel of a newborn is just an experience on its own. I love watching them sleep in my arms all cuddled up in a ball and then having them stretch and yawn continually. I love the joy you get when you get to come home for the first time as a bigger family then when you left for the hospital.
Now as appealing as that all looks and sounds, am I really ready for another little human? So many things to consider with that question. Emotionally I know I'm not ready. I can barely keep up with my toddler! Having two kids, a business, cooking and cleaning?! I can barely keep a clean house with my toddler! Also the thought of going to the hospital 9 months pregnant ready to deliver just sends shivers down my back.
I rushed into having Augustin, which was the best decision I ever made, but it was rushed and wasn't well thought through. This time I think I'm putting way to much thought into having our second.
So I'm not going to rush myself and see what happens with time. Who knows it might be 3 more years or I could be ready next year. Something I'm discussing with the Lord currently.
And why talk about this now? Well Augustin is going to be 2 in January and I'm not sure I want to have another toddler in 5 yrs and kinda want to get it over with.
Okay, I'm done.