With so much happening and so much to say I'm wondering why I'm still staring at this blank space. I've written like 10 posts in the last week, kinda wish they weren't all in my head.
I've had a rough time since coming back from California. Its all interesting to me because as I came back I was overwhelmed with the blessings that God has poured into my life. So many of my dreams have come true for me in the last 5 years of my life that I can just sit here and cry from an overwhelming feeling of thankfulness. Than all at the same time the change from sunny and warm to yucky and cold had effected me emotionally to where I didn't even care to pick up my camera. Fears were overtaking my thoughts every over minute. It was a battle inside of me. One moment I'm overwhelmed with my blessings and the other I'm consumed with my fears.
After several days of this I had to put a stop to this crazy whirl wind. It was effecting every aspect of my life and it wasn't even that big of a deal. In the end I had won this emotional and spiritual battle, but tears were shed, tears that haven't fallen for a very long time. All said and done, it was good to get some stuff out, overcome those hard moments and embrace the life that has been given to me.
So with those moments I embraced being a mom, a wife, a daughter, and an artist. I poured it out to those things that are dear to my heart. Even on a rainy, windy and cold morning I took Toddler out to splash in the puddles. At that moment what I was going through didn't matter. My heart was warmed to have the opportunity to enjoy my son.
And then there is the way that he just melts my heart when he picks up a camera and knows how to work it. He's graduated to my camera, but I hold it along with him and we take pictures of the world together. It sometimes catches me off guard at how much he is like me.
My husband bought him TWO balls on Saturday, but he enjoyed his microphone that I sneaked (not in a bad way) so much more. He sings, plays instruments, paints, loves to garden, loves flowers and drinks only out of pretty glasses, he even eats with his drum set. My husband tells me NOT to change him if his outfit doesn't match, makes me laugh. I guess I need to train him to be more of a boy and not an artist.
His fake "I want it my way' cry.
Today was the first weekday where we were able to get back into our schedule and head out the house early after breakfast.
The forecast told me that today was going to be a rainy one, but we were lucky and it started to rain just now. Without any rain we were able to go to my favorite spot in the whole Pacific Northwest, Lake Washington Blvd. I fell in love with this place about 10 or so years ago. I'm hoping that our next house will be there.
It was really nice to get out the house, explore our city and truly have a marvelous day with my son and mom. If it's not raining tomorrow morning we're going to go back because there is just so much to see and do there. Toddler really gets a chance to explore, run around and just be a boy.
(Sorry for the quality in some of these images. I had to use my broken lens, but something is better than nothing when it come to memories.)
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