It's amazing to me how ones world can be turned upside down all within a night, but it happens and it's happened to many of us in one form or another. Those moments can be freeing, incredible or downright painful.
I still don't have the words to how my world has been thrown upside down. I have yet to figure out if it's for the good or for the bad. My emotions take me one direction of the spectrum to the other. What used to soothe me and help me focus no longer does. I lean on the one thing that I know will give me peace, answer my hearts questions and lead my heart in the right direction and that is my God. I'm no one, I am powerless and a mess, but He is more.
I'm only being vague because that's where my thoughts are. I'm believing and praying for clarity. I do know that it's yet another defining moment in my life where how I choose and what I do will be counted and measured out in the end.
My hope is that there's a light at the end of this tunnel so I, like my pastor says, can plod on, plod on, plod on with being a mom, keeping the house clean and making sure there is food on the table. I am thankful and grateful for all the support I have in my life as I figure the hard stuff out.
Don't we all have these kinds of moments? Doesn't life knock us down once in a while?
Reminding myself of all the things that I am thankful for and how I just need to focus on those things as they make the heart a better place.
I'll work on a happy post tomorrow.