Thursday, December 7, 2017

Sometimes I Cry | Week One, Day Seven

Today started with a prayer. A prayer for wisdom, peace and joy for our day.

It didn't go any better than yesterday.

I'm a person who doesn't cry and if I do, it rarely. Today I cried and I cried hard.

I'm leaving this blog post at that. There's nothing more to say. Maybe one more thing. Can we just throw homeschooling out the window? Can I just throw myself on the ground and kick and scream like my son does? Can I just throw the whole house out the window?

I think I need to go pray now and cry some more.

I've had a few minutes. When someone's anger reaches a max people usually have a moment to go outdoor, take a breather. Me, as a homeschooling mom, I don't have that luxury. I'd have to take the child with me. That means convincing him for an hour, feeding him, dressing him and the list goes on. Just for that breather I'd be anger then ever before.

It's a day where I work on the right things, but its just me hitting my head against a wall. Days like these are real life, everyone gets them. I have to remind myself that I'm not the only one going through this horrid season. It's 2pm! I'll go turn on some worship music, invite Jesus in again and ignore my child (he'll be safer that way). I'll update this at the end of the day, maybe things will turn around and the dark hurricane over my head will pass.

It didn't pass. It was a hard day, a hard threw days that we all get from time to time. Crying helps in these moments as it relieves some of that buildup inside. There is always hope in Jesus.

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